This
morning as I went to make our early morning cup of tea, I saw a blaze
of red through the glass door at the end of our passageway. It looked
almost as if the neighbour's house was on fire! Reaching the door, I
realised the early morning sunrise was painting fantastic colours on
the cloudy horizon. I called my wife to come and see. And as we
watched, the sunrise quickly faded to a golden yellow. It was
beautiful, but I found myself recalling the old proverb: 'Red sky
in the morning – shepherd's warning'. Another
rainy day I thought!
We both suffer from a
mild version of Seasonal Affective Disorder. Being the
time of year when darkness wraps itself around us at an early hour,
the nights are long, and daylight cloudy. It is easy to end up
feeling a bit glum and tired of the endless sogginess and lack of
warmth. I found exercise helps, so have started to take regular
walks or bicycle rides.
Yesterday,
while walking along a pathway that wound its way along the
bush-covered banks of a local stream, I was enthralled by the sound of
Tui in a Kowhai tree. And there, under the canopy of trees surrounded by the
bird song and the sound of flowing water, the earlier gloom of the
Shepherd's warning for another rainy day soon faded. It felt good to
be alive, surrounded by the gift of nature.
So
it was, I began to think about the transient nature of our moods. Do
I have moods? Or do moods have me? I know negative moods affect my
judgement and perception, while positive moods can increase my sense
of happiness and hope. The ancient Greeks knew this also. They were
good observers of feelings and moods and good psychologists! We see
this reflected in their myths, especially in the drama of
Persephone.
Persephone was a young girl who enjoyed the beauty
of nature. One day she was captured by Hades and taken to his
underworld kingdom. There, she becomes his bride and queen of the
dark. Her mother Demeter misses and searches for her, and finally is
told by Hekate, the goddess who rules the darkness, what has
occurred. In the end, Hermes, the guide of souls, brings Persephone
back from Hades. However, before releasing Persephone, Hades
requests that she is to spend four months of each year in his
underworld home. And so the annual season of winter was born.
Greek
myth is telling a story about the drama of our inner
life. We all have our Hekate, our own dark angel who stands at the
crossroads of our life. She has four symbols:
The
first is a Key which gave her
entry into the underworld and her freedom to come and leave as she wished. Hekate
is never overcome by the darkness, nor does she get lost within it.
Our Hekate, for example, can be a therapist or Spiritual Director;
self-knowledge or faith; dreams or a meditation practice. What would be
your key that leads you to wholeness and spiritual and personal
health?
The
second is a Whip. Our dark nights not only plunge us into
darkness, they also batter us, causing us to feel we are being
torn apart. We may feel we are even losing our mind. The
Psalmist refers to this experience in Psalm 126:
O that our tears may be seeds of joy!
Then when suffering ploughs her furrows in the tender soil of our hearts
and we go forth weeping, we shall rejoice when we bring our harvest home.
The
third is a Dagger. In the darkness, there is a time to be still
and a time to be active. Sometimes we need to work for change or
healing. One way to do this is by doing something active and/or
creative.
And
the fourth is a Torch. Hekate stood at the crossroads holding two
torches, one each hand. The first represents intuition and the
second, action. We need to learn to trust and act on our intuitions.
I
wonder who is your Hekates? Who is your guide when you have choices to
make? What tools have you found to
lead you through the dark seasons of your life?
Kia
mau te rongo me te pai ki a koe i to haerenga
May
you find peace and goodwill on your journey.
Phil
________________________
Moore,
Thomas,"Dark
nights of the Soul - A guide to finding your way through life's
ordeals, Avery;
Reprint edition,2005.